I bet if you go on Instagram which I have been banned from for 150 days which is hard to fix, because, you need extensive credentials to even make a fanpage or whatever rit is of those hot models who sell their body on fanartpage.com or whatever but get this

my dad sucks he's dead to me and also if you message Kate Shumskaya (@mimisskate) a bunch of stuff with Doeli or Doella in the name I bet it might get accidentally immediately locked to show superior precision for Nephri himself swaenk, Ricky Nephrison to be exact so says the Trogdorian dragon controlling my soul which I willingly gave up to him at the age of five to spite my gay unheterosexual offspringer who is fucking 100% dead to me. He can die and to go to hell for all I care.

I think it's all about to change. The costs of making the $5 bill (which is pretty spectacular nice) are probably not worth the costs of making it. I fashion they may make a $5 toonie which could be blue instead of orange/yellow. The fiver you could say. Slappin' a fiver in that poor domestic house-cat/serving wenches paw. I mean, truly.

So I am thinking here, I just sent some people some random messages. They have no time to reply or something. Specifically the old mod PsychoGoldfish, who I believe is still alive or something or everyone would hate me or whatever.

I am vaguely listening to girly music, which is nice. The older I get the more I like girly music, but at the same time, the girly artists I have listened to over the ages have always been the same, so in some sense it would seem girly music has defeated me i'm not sure. Like Keisha?

Anyway, I am using a proxy to post this from a fraternity dorm as it's blocked. Everything is blocked vaguely. I think they expect you to use a proxy or something I am unsure. Anyway have a nice day.

a nice NIN song u no?

Listen to Armin van Buuren & Maor Levi - Divino by Armin van Buuren on #SoundCloud

https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/PK2Ld

It is blocked by almost all WiFi hotspots. Frustrating as I recently deleted facebook. Deleting Facebook has made me feel so much smarter. Truly. Now I am not squinting over completely random updates from a hundred different sources at all times of the day. Facebook isn’t healthy. I am a liberated human, untethered from the harsh confines of my story feed.

holy f#ck no sooner did I say that then this:

When I was a wee lad when I watched this movie for some reason it caused a seriously powerful emotional response. I don't quite get it now, but at the time this movie was... just beautiful. :\

I am a morbid person. I've almost died a few times... death is very slow. It is an instant goodbye that drifts by slowly. If you're very lucky it will just keep fucking going and pass you right by. If you're not lucky it will strike instantly and you will be eternally lost.

There is the ultra slow death tho that's totally different. Where death holds you and cradles you and slowly over a great time you waste away. I've never come close to this. I am a retarded adrenaline junkie. Not a quadrapalegic.

So I am trying to do the impossible. As far as I know I've done some impossible things up to this point so I repeat for the thousandth fucking time this should be the fucking easy part fuck sakes you stupid fuck people.

I merely want to suck your daughter's/sister's blood. Seriously fuck

That new redesign is spiffy.

I am at ends with some expressions of individuality at times though because it may conflict with another person's perception of themselves and others.

A person should always be able to express themselves but how they express their vision is quite important. I personally envision NG becoming something much more gigantic than it currently is or was.

We live in a new time, that seems like an oxymoron because time is always "new" but society accepts more now than it has ever. Our ability to condone our views has significantly improved since the 1950s but our ability to hate hasn't decreased.

We use to hate the publicist who spoke his opinion but now the publicist is hating people who do not condone his views it is almost a backwards cycle.

Anyway my design theology is that if a person has taken the time to make a beautiful design, something new, something mature, something edgy and free from tarnished history, while any design doesnt last forever, that design can always be used again and again elsewhere. Say, another painting of a different subject that people could view more objectively. These paintings get massive attention and that is because humans are driven beings that do not waste time

But in time what do you want to see? What do you want to show your friends and family? More or less? You can't have your cake and eat it too.

You can however open a store that sells cake.

This was a career suicide moment. I was eating a free meal at the salvation army picknick. Free food for people who use the salvation army services. While I was receiving food one of the annoying chaplains not one of the cool ones snapped a pic while I was grabbing a burger. They really wanted a photo of one of the staff members but I was right in there. If that ever goes global I am done for... pathetic